don't force me to kill myself.

work so hard for what? push myself so far in order to proof peoples there i am not a useless person, but things just goes in a opposite way.

I face the challenges in studying, force my myself to study and get good grades. but what for? no one believe that i am trying my best.

everyday wake up early in the morning at 6.20am to go school. reach home at 10plus, all those things for? nothing, no motivations to push myself.

Depression/loneliness/stressed all coming to me at the same time,
no one is there for me to talk to.
no one believe that i am stressed,
why? do anyone know i had problems too?
why friends/family members keep throwing their problem to me?
why! i am a normal human being too! i got feelings too.
do they know i got my own problems/stressed?
why! i am totally disappointed by them.
totally disappointed, i push myself to study and excel one day, but
why, why they always never think of how stressed i am, how tired i am. why?!